i.

 

There are only metaphors for becoming.

Only the sibuyas un-peeling its layers

calachuci spreading their petals

paruparo emerging from cocoons

events of blossoming, acts of uncovering, of nakedness.

There are no great metaphors for reversal.

Perhaps the process of drying plums

day-old tinapa fish in baskets

shrivelling into themselves

already frightened of exposure

of appointment and disappointment.

There’s nothing heroic about what you call maturing,

its simple truth, the inward turn, the change of color

on a once-green leaf – decaying then falling.

 

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ii.

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In a crowd you keep your mouth sealed

in your heart, the act of kimkím –

keeping in, tightly-held, a fist.

You know that what you have gathered

will not measure up to this new movement

the migration of self into self, layer into layer.

So you retreat to the planes of the mind, forgoing the body,

which in longing has assumed hurt,

the mind which has tied and knotted itself

into pieces that collide with each other, and cry

nanay, pushing the baby in the duyan.

The cry reverberates

and the walls are sobbing.